Close To You Album
So…beyond the music would imply that there are subject materials that go beyond just singing a song and telling a story. To me music is personal and the subjects of these songs certainly belong to that personal category. The stories are ones that I have not only experienced, but felt on a such a deep level I just had to write a song about it!
I’m not an expert in the subject of love. Actually, I feel like a novice at best. But, as I thought about writing the songs of this album I went back to significant moments where I felt love. Each song has a history. In this album most of those stories are quite evident and easy to pick out. Some of the songs are just “light” and “fun”. But then there are a few that tackle some deeper subjects. If you have a moment I’ll share that with you as I take you through each of the songs and what they mean to me as I wrote and sang them.
Close To You
The title track of the album was picked as the title track because simply put, I liked the way it looked on the album cover. That’s not very deep, but the idea of the song is. “I want to get close to you” is a lyric that I have felt in my relationships time and time again. Sometimes I have often wondered how to get closer and “relate” with those closest to me. I dedicated this album to my wife and kids with the intent of hopefully getting closer.
It’s amazing how fast time goes by and how much distance you can put between you and a loved one over that time. It’s so easy to come “undone” and not be any closer to that person. Time is no respecter of your love life. You have to make time for the important things. Unfortunately I have come to realize that good intentions are usually worthless. That’s why I wrote it with the idea of hoping to understand what it is that I can do to be a better man. I hoped to invoke the curious side of my spouse and the people I love, hoping that they would open up as I do and together get closer to each other. Of course, the rest is personal. You’ll just have to apply the idea of the song in your own life to see if it works. What are you willing to do to get closer? What are you willing to sacrifice?
We’re In Love
This song is the epitome of every hopeless romantic. It’s the song for someone who had a bad experience in life and then found that “one” that changed everything. The idea of finding someone that you totally “click” with on every level is every person’s dream. Someone that you could honestly say, “We’re in love! Isn’t this fun!” Love should be fun. It should be free from judgment and a safe place to share your most personal side. There should be a build up of self-esteem and happiness. It’s a fun and carefree song that points out the best of emotions. It should “feel so right to have you by my side” when you are truly in love.
I Didn’t Know
It’s always somewhat comical to me when someone I run in to points out to me that “I’m not a Christian.” People obviously don’t know me very well. It’s a great comfort to me to know that Christ is part of the plan of life. Now, I don’t have a clue what the entire plan is top to bottom, but I’m sure God will explain things one day in full and there will be more understanding for all of us.
Life is challenging. There’s so much I don’t get when I take an honest look at life and all the suffering that I see everywhere. However, it is comforting to know that Christ came and has a part in all this. The one thing that didn’t really ever occur to me is what Jesus’ dad on earth thought about all this. What was Joseph’s thoughts and feelings as he stepped in to this adoptive parental role? I can’t imagine looking at this newborn in my wife’s arms and knowing the history behind him and the mission in front of him. This song is dedicated to Joseph and all parents. The lyrics are pretty clear, I think, when you know what I am singing about. Hopefully you will enjoy it.
I Wish That I Could Hold You
I can only describe this song as a “tender moment” in the recording studio. This is a song that came about as I contemplated those people that have lost loved ones or had someone they loved that no longer lived with them. This brought up all kinds of emotions. The idea of wishing to just hold someone again and making “everything all right” again was touching to me. It hurts to think about the loss that some have gone through.
The feelings I have aren’t really explainable. I see so much in the world and hear the stories of those who have gone through so much loss, and my heart aches for them. I literally ache inside. I hope that my efforts to lift people up are felt. I am forever grateful for the abundance of love in my life, but I am acutely aware of the suffering in this world. I hope and pray that God will be there. Life doesn’t make sense some times. I’m sure there will be clarity if we seek it. I’m counting on it. I’m hopeful.
If I had one wish what would it be? I wish that I could hold all the little children that suffer. I wish that I could help them and protect them. This may seem trivial or ridiculous to some, but I really don’t care if people understand that side of me. I will figuratively and literally continue to pick up each child, young and old, that is suffering and do what I can.
Love Changes Everything
Well… it does.
The idea of this song was to tell someone far away from me that love doesn’t die just because of distance. Sometimes that distance isn’t just measured in miles, but years. Love is a gift. Real love is truly a gift. Not everyone finds it, and even fewer hold on to it. Is it idealistic to want this above all else? If you have it, hold on to it at all costs.
A Million Reasons
If you have real love… put down the TV remote and tell them every reason why you love them. Actually, show them! There’s a million reasons why you should.
You Are The One
Everyone has that moment when they can look back say, “I remember when.” I do remember when I met the special people in my life. I remember when I met my wife. I remember when I met my children for the first time. It is one of those incredible moments when you know they were meant to be in your life! It’s even more remarkable to meet someone for the first time and still have that feeling. You were meant to be together. I remember the birth of our first child Alexis. I knew right then and there that she was meant to be a part of my life. Every child after that has been the same. You are intensely drawn to the ones you love the most. You know you would do anything for them, even give your own life if needed. This is a connection that I am singing about in this song. When you know…you know.
Tonight
Oh boy, every guy has got this one down to a science. LOL! No one is perfect. Time comes and goes by until finally you know that you have to make it right some how. It’s too easy to just let things slide for a while and not address the hard topics in a relationship. Some things can’t be fixed in some relationships. I’m real enough to understand this. But, for the things that can be made right… it’s a two way street. Both parties have to be willing or it’s just not going to work.
Relationships are always tricky. The question is, “what do you really want, and WHY do you want it?” If this person means enough to you then the humility to apologize will be there. And, you’ll give 110% not just 50 to make the relationship work. Believe me when I say I’m guilty of letting the humility go by.
A constant thought I have when it comes to my relationships is this: “Don’t trade what you want most for what you want at the moment.” Sometimes easier said then done, but essential. Hopefully I’ll prove to myself that I can make that change happen “tonight” rather than let it go by. Otherwise, it might be too late.
You Are Beautiful
I just love the tone of this song. When I look at my little daughters growing up in a world that is constantly telling them they need to be “super models” to survive… I just melt in agony. I reach out to them and tell them with all my heart, “you are beautiful to me!” This seems fitting to share globally too. The fact is that I believe God would say this to us if He could. He would reach down and tell us that we are beautiful to Him! Each of us has value and worth. We squander that away sometimes in the fatal pursuit of things that aren’t beautiful or worth it. When we wrap our heads around that concept, life is good! Life is BEAUTIFUL!
My Everything
So this is my favorite song on the album. It’s so intensely personal that I can’t really share the details of it in full. All I can say is…this song was deep and profound in it’s creation and execution. I hope that I can always be “that man” I describe in the song. The world pulls at us every day and I hope that the help from above will be with each of us in our relationships. Enjoy the song. Love your family. Be that man or woman they need. Fight for real love!